I'm a woman and I'm Insecure

On Thursday I was talking to a friend about how hard it is to see our daughters experience the same insecurities that we did/do. Do we make them more secure by being there for them all the time, choosing to stay home, spending lots of time together? Or would they be more confident if they were exposed to more social settings.... daycare? Could we give them the confidence that we lack?.... or are they doomed to be insecure because they pick that up in us?

I've been thinking these things over.

In the meantime, I've been around both highschool and college friends.


On Friday, Stacy and I went to see Christina at her mother's visitation.

One of my best friends from highschool lost her mother last week. When we were in college, Stacy O and I went with Christina to Atlanta to visit her mother at Emory after her liver transplant. It seemed as though she might not make it. But she got better and better. She turned her life around. Now 14 years later, her body rejected the liver. (she was saved several years ago)

Afterward, Stacy and I went to our sorority reunion. We did enjoy seeing old friends.... but oh, the insecurities. Being around gorgeous, smart, successful, wealthy people. Am I the only one who feels like the underdog whenever entering a room? Does anybody else wonder if people are just talking to you to be polite?

But I think that the Spirit spoke into my heart today. I don't want to teach my daughter to muster up a confident front, or worse- to become prideful. I want to teach her that her worth does not come from what other people think about her... or her distorted perception of what other people are thinking. ... but the God who created her redeemed her and paid a great price to have a relationship with her forever and with me forever... and with all those out there who will believe in Him. He sent His Son into this world to live a sinless life, and die on the cross to pay for our sins.... so that he could have a relationship with us!!!! When the God of the universe thinks we are special enough to want to have a relationship with us....

Rather than teach her to be confident... I want to teach her Who to put her confidence in!... and I want to learn it for myself.